Breathlessi can't breathe the smell of sickness clogs my nostrils like gopher dirt. i'd open my mouthinhale or yell or explainit's sewn shut by me(n)tal chainswired connections through bonesthat hold together heavy wingsnever-never-ever light-as-a-featheri wearlovely on my crooked wristsbut never through my veinsi'll sing my wishes but i can't speakjaw dislodged from blowing myselfaway. i just wantsomething to be realsomeone to carethe pounding in my head to go back to the street where it belongsjackhammering teethi'm so tired, so tired of chewing,itching my bruised elbows and kneestrying to find the starsto lead me to you.youyou, who can't knowhow i carved your love into bark of my heartwe can grow around itbut we can't forgetyou,you, who can't knowhow strong i have to hold onto the tie of the balloonas it blows out to sea. you,you, who can't knowhow scar(r)ed i amto be forever inkedlinked to y
Absencelike a book missing the last page,a letter missing a stampthe absence of you ruins my day.
Not Enoughthe sounds of summersing of single scarsand matching heartachepain hidden behind colored contactsi remember the searing of guiltbranded into skinthe original white tattoo.
Wintergirlswintered lungsare trapped in the heat of summerthawing back into an age of ice-ed thoughts, cold smilesfragile hearts that won't be-lieve in assurance since empty eyes are floodedsorry for the droughtthat set everything ablaze.the monday moonlike x-ray glassessees the pain written on ribsthe fear of seeing the truthcuts, bruises and burns:reminders of weekendscars tell the storieswe can't remember to forgetperpetual headaches pounding exhaustion in hollow bonesno one can live like thisso, is forever enough.